“I AM NOT ENOUGH!”
“I AM NOT PRETTY ENOUGH!”
“MY LIFE IS IN SHAMBLES!”
“I CAN’T DO IT!”
“I WILL FAIL!”
What’s stated above may be identifiable with many people. But the real question is, “Why do we feel these things? Why does it make more sense sometimes to accept the negative things that we feel about ourselves? Where does these things stem from?”
Let’s just say you are a person who constantly struggles with the notion “I am not where I want to be in life” or “I have this dream, but I don’t know where to start so I can’t start”. You constantly struggle with these things because you have already thought in your mind that it can’t be done or that you will fail. Before you speak these things, before you feel these things they are THOUGHTS first. EVERYTHING BEGINS WITH A THOUGHT! Before you comb your hair, it is a first a thought, before you cook dinner, it is first a thought, before you brush your teeth, it is first a thought, before you tie your shoes, it is first a thought, before you go to work, it is first a thought, before you fall in love, it is first a thought. I say all these things to show you that what you think plays a major key in your life.
For many years I felt horrible about myself. I was confused about life, like many of us are. I was a worry wart, I couldn’t make decisions on my own and I felt like life was too much. I had dreams, but I couldn’t see them coming to pass, in fact it was easier for me to just think of all the negative things because it was a safe place for me. Negative thinking was a safe place for me because positive thinking required ACTION! Whenever I did think positive about my life and my dreams I knew to turn my dreams into reality I had to take some form of action but instead of doing just that I would instantly think of all the negative reasons why I couldn’t do it and I would crawl back into my safe place. Have you ever been in a place where you feel deep down in your heart that you are ready to take that leap of faith but in your mind, you see everything that’s wrong with taking the leap. It’s like your mind and your heart is playing tug of war. I became a very stressed and depressed person and I felt like a dark cloud was over my head. I started to pray more, read my bible, I even listed to motivational speakers–anything that I felt could help me. It would work in that moment, but I was still struggling within my mind. I asked myself constantly what am I missing? I was in a battle. A mind battle. One day I came across a scripture in the bible, 2 Corinthians 10:4-5, “For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds; Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ”. It was within this scripture that I realized that I could control my thoughts. I could control the negativity that was drowning out the positive in my thoughts and in my life. I also realized that I had to not only control my mind, but I had to believe in and speak positivity. I must tell you, this was not an easy task, but I was tired of hiding and I was tired of feeling depressed and stressed. Now don’t get me wrong, negative thoughts are going to come but you don’t have to accept the thoughts that creep in instead you must find a way to shift your thoughts and that is exactly what I did. Whenever I felt negative thoughts creeping in I would start to pray and think positive things and eventually the positive things I thought would over shadow the negative things. I became so proud of myself and confident in myself, something I hadn’t felt in a long time. I began to pray more, study my bible, I watched motivational videos, and more importantly I began to motivate myself more by believing and speaking positive. I started to get out more and just enjoy my life right where I was, and I still do all these things today.
The person I am today is because of the person I chose to be 2 years ago. I decided enough was enough and I wanted to OVERCOME my struggles. I wrote this post because I know that there are many people going through mind battles and they don’t see a way out but I’m here to tell you that it takes a lot of discipline. You must change so many habits you adapted to while you were in that negative state of mind. You must affirm some things on a daily and let them sink deep down. Life happens, things in life happen but it is up to you to change that which makes you dread life. Have you guys ever heard the saying by Smokey the Bear, “Only you can prevent forest fires”, well I’m here to tell you that “Only you can prevent battles in your mind”. You have God as your protector and he will help guide you, but you must take that leap and trust God’s process for your life. BE AN OVERCOMER!!!